Friday, March 31, 2006

another weekend...

The rain dampens my enthusiasm for the weekend. I keep wondering how the hell i'm going to enjoy the parties with the freakin rain coming down.

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Herb left a few days back. I feel really sad losing another friend to abroad but well, it is a scholarship, and yes, i know she will do so much better there (i miss ya girl!) We reminisced while packing, eaeting ice cream and chatting about the usual "not-so-usual" topics, like frogs and migrating toads.:-P Go figure. Herb, i hope you got in safe dearie! Make me proud and learn how to braid your hair, k?

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Depression strikes again. I think it's the weather. The rainy days have come (much to my surprise) and with it came my reminiscing/melancholy mood. I feel like lighting up a garam, nurse a cup of joe and just stare out into the nothingness.

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Had tea with an old officemate yesterday. It's great catching up with people... i miss hanging! The afternoon glow of a semi-wewt thursday is quite interesting, especially in Ortigas. I feel like i'm going back in time. Walking through emerald to Tektite (where my friend works) we reminisce of days gone by, of old colleagues and bizaare job orders, even laughed through some weird mishaps in the office. It's nice to go through memory lane once in a while.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

adieu

If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

friday swing


friday_karaoke
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

no need for a band to keep you entertained! karaoke anyone?

80iest!!!


80iest!!!
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

reminscing the 80s a couple of weeks back with some fun-lovin' party souls

Monday, March 27, 2006

migraine

hilong hilo nako.

Smoking nonstop a record of 5 sticks of garams in a spam of four hours gets to you that way.

Damn damn damn.

Maybe it's the stress of another working week (a few hours from now). Maybe it's the hormones gone haywire (damn this irregularity of mood swings). Perhaps it's the intense tension of having to be in the same room with a person you just want to kick in the freakin' arse. Maybe it's the sadness of an impending departure of a dear old friend.

maybe it's all that. *sigh*

sh*t. This freakin' headache better go away.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

kitty + bunnie


kitty and bunnie
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

Had a fab night with Kitz, Vince, Sonic and new friend William --- we watched ICE AGE 2's premiere! Twa sa fun night (the movie was kinda fun, but not really) but we ended up the night with a nightcap at El Pueblo's Congo Grille. NO pics for tonight though (aww) but here's a pic from last saturday's happy pix to celebrate and illustrate the kitty+bunnie tandem. heheheh.

Other highlights for the day:
- mornin' romp & a drive thru breakfast
- Shopping spree with mom! :-)
- fab finds for my new room
- new dress (yehey!!!)
- chillin' with the momsky :-D

Friday, March 24, 2006

haunts

Due to public demand (?) i have decided to share some of the stories i heard about my new abode.

One night, my housemate and his friend decided to have a few drinks in the house. It was late, and being a big old house, the house was quiet except for a few squeaks. My housemate's friend was going to sleep in the room next to mine, which had windows that was fronting the side garden.

It was dark, around midnight, and he was drunk. He noticed that there was a rustling outside his window and peered to look. There was a small kid looking back at him! His eyes were blankly staring back, and he was so pale. The hair on his back started to stand out and he bolted out of his drunken stupor, running out of the room yelling for my friend. When asked, he described the boy vividly, and my friend started smiling a bit. He later showed him a pic of a young boy. "is this the boy?" my friend asked. "yes, that's him!" My friend later told him it was his great grandfather as a young kid, who usually was seen around as a kid going about the house to "check up" on the people.

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My friend himself had a particular experience with his kid. On a really hot night, he and his niece and nephew decided to sleep in the car and turn the a/c on. His nephew, about 5, was super "likot" (restless) and was moving about always, so he tyends to get lost most of the time. Sometime during the night he woke up, and saw that his nephew was gone from the car. He saw a figure of a kid running about outsided and thought it was him, so he decided to follow it. They had a mad goosechase around the house before he realized that it wasn't his nephew. CHills started to dawn on him when he saw that it was his great grandfather. He ran back to the car, saw his nephew and niece sleeping inside, which he saw that a part nearby the car started to smoke. So he woke them up and they were able to put out the fire. In a way, he figured, it was his grandfather keeping him away from danger.

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Granted, the haunts are not scary, and they are pretty harmless, but hell, i don't want to personally experience seeing one :-P

Thursday, March 23, 2006

pre-weekend

It's thursday, baby!

Can't wait for the weekend... can't believe i've been working my ass off since i started, and now i am sooo ready for the freakin' weekend. Geez. :-P

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So what's been happening so far....

Banged up my freakin' knee recently, so i am "semi-seriously injured" (yep, limpin' baby) and have a seriously scary wound just staring out to the public (it hurts!)... yup, i am an accident prone girl, that i am... Had a scare the other night courtesy of my new housemate, Dex ---he scared the bejezus out of me when he started telling me scary stories about our house (which are true!) and for that i had a major attack ---- Damn you Dex! Chilled with Ais and Jane while dishing out girl talk and more over ice cream...yummmy..... work work work!

Dammit, i miss my old life. But i love my new room :-) hehhe.

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*sigh* i really do.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

F1 sunday!!!


F1 sunday!
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

Havin' more pics! F1 sunday proved to be more fun than i expected :-)

Monday, March 20, 2006

weekend what-have-yous part deux

Weekend pics, care of Kittee! Yey!





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F1 sunday. Got into high gear (albeit a splitting headache) as i watched the malaysian race with the blueridge crew at the Fort's Speedzone. Ooh lala. I think i'm getting into racing this year.

Didn't win in the raffle (too bad my driver got pushed out of the race on the first run) but i did get to check out the carting at Speedzone. Reminds me of Glendale's go cart place (sans the date and with better equipment). Hmmm. I wanna go carting now!

Got to chill with the cutie cousins of housemate Sonic (well, babysitting is more like it, hahah).

A confrontation with klepto girl rounded up the afternoon spent with buddies Duane, Mike, Dex, Corinne and Maloy. LOL.

Dinner at Mickey D's (whoo-hoo, i'm so cheap) and a night cap of iced coffee with Nons capped the evening. Ah, im tired.

Now the week begins. Hmmm.

I wish i slept more.

dinner with aums and arvz


dinner with aums and arvz
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

last saturday's dinner plans! :-) had a fab dinner with my cousin Aumer (soon to be a bride!), her fiance Arvz, and a few close friends to discuss wedding plans and just chill :-)

Sunday, March 19, 2006

i don't wanna hear ...

i don't wanna know...

Aaaagh. The tipsy feeling that i have euphorically held unto is fast dissipating with my frustration. Frustration at the assh*le of a cabbie, at the night's eventual demise and my apparent lack of conviction to my resolutions...

please don't say i'm sorry...

Beep. I hear my phone but i don't want to check it. The messages contained may just make me feel more frustrated. Yargh. Why doi always seem to put myself in this freakin' position!??!?! Green eyed monster, take your claws out!

I've heard it all before...

I need a stiff drink to recapture my early rapture, dammit. *sigh* And work looms in a few hours.....

Friday, March 17, 2006

getting my fix

mmmm. absolut vanilia and diet coke is DA BOMB. Had my fix of it last night with galpal Corinne at Makati's Tiananmen bar. We celebrated my moving into my newpad, which incidentally, she is part of. Cheers, housemate!

A round of drinks later with Sonic after his meeting. Decided to head over to Brown Paper bag in Libis for some good chow and cheap drinks.

Loved the atmosphere but the wengweng was a little too strong.

Had a nightcap elsewhere.

mmmm.... twas a good night, indeed.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

in transit (again)

Moving is such a tedious chore. I really don't understand why, but moving around here in the country a lot more effort than anywhere else. Is it the traffic? the heat? the damnable service crew who takes up most of your time by doing something else other than helping you?

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Damn. My shoes are taking up too much space (and i've already sized it down to 4 pairs, thank you very much!) Hmmm. what to sacrfice? style or comfort?

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Beep. :-)

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

*pfffft*

Constantly craving absolut vanilla and diet coke these days. Hmmm. Damn, that was good stuff (thanks Nonz! I luv that drink!)

MMmmm. wonder if i can get my hands on some this coming weekend. tee-hee. That will make my week.

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Beep. There you go again, making me think. Your messages send mixed signals that i want to just sit you down and ask you upfront WHY.

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All this packing is making me go crazy. The sad part is, i really want to bring a LOT of stuff. But of course i can't. sheeesh. Talking to numbingly lethargic people over the phone doesn't help either.

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

bored bored bored.... (hahha, halata ba?)

After checking my accounts for the nth time (yes, i get bored easily) i decided to put my "break from packing" togood use and answer a meme. Hahaha. Go figure.

CRAVING- bellini's truffle gelato (mmmm......)

PRESENT FAVORITE SONG- Akin ka na Lang / Buwan (itchyworms)

LAST FOOD U ATE- some garlic mushrooms made by the cook :-D

LAST SONG PLAYED- Falling star (itchyworms) ---nakikinig ako sa album eh

LAST SONG U SANG?- see previous answer :-D

LAST GIFT U RECEIVED?- a lollipop from haydz :-)

LAST GAME U ENJOYED PLAYING- quake arena with my lil bro

LAST TIME U HAD UR HAIRCUT- just a few days ago

LAST ALCOHOL U DRANK- Strong Ice!

LAST BOOK YOU READ- the historian by Elizabeth K. (still reading it actually)

LAST BIRTHDAY ATTENDED- noni's (kahit wala sya, hahha) sa BSM

LAST GIMIK/ OUTING?- yesterday --- work with Nons @ a coffee shop

LAST THING U DO BEFORE U GO TO SLEEP- go OC and check the covers

LAST THING U BOUGHT- coffee

LAST MALL U VISITED- SM Iloilo

LAST MOVIE U WATCHED- Last Holiday

LAST PERSON WHO PICKED YOU UP- my brother (from the airport)

PRESENT PERSON U HATE- hmmm...none at the moment

LAST PERSON U TEXTED- Zsa, if she's home na

LAST PERSON U TALKED TO - Mark, my officemate (the files, the files...LOL)

LAST BREAK-UP- November 2005

PRESENT CRUSH- di sya sikat eh

PRESENT THOUGHTS- dammit i should be elsewhere right now....

hopeful?

Mi caramelo, yo deseo que las cosas fueran diferentes. puedo sólo esperanza que usted lo sabe suficiente en cambiarlo. La pelota, a fin de cuentas, está en su tribunal.

ruminations

So i'm back to the province for a few days. Silence has never been as appealing to me as it is right now.

yeah right.

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Fortunately, i will be lugging back most of my stuff back to the metro in a few days (yay!) and moving into my new residence/room (evenmore yey!) as a new addition to my old college buddy's house --- a move that is surprisingly easy to make.

He and i have been friends since waay back in college, and we have been through enough sucafests,gimiks,heartbreaks and otehr chuvaloos to have anything surprising shock us both. What's just odd and somewhat interesting is he shares the same name as my last ex, so people when i tell them i was moving into his house, they automatically go into two reactions. One is: "wTF!??! He's here?" and, "Oh,jezus, you guys are back living together!??!" LOL. Pretty funny.

So anyway, with a promise of a red room and some possibilities of new furniture and stuff (yey!) i am looking forward to coming back to the metro and living again. Hmmm. Looks like this year is gonna be pretty damn interesting too....

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Monday, March 13, 2006

eclipses

enclose me in your warm embrace
maybe the night won't be so cold
the sonnets echo my melancholy
the moon witnesses my musings
once again

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Your parting left me breathless
as sinewy lips met mine
drunk
we are both drunk with the moment
and harsh reality
brings us back to earth
the daylight sheds light
to the haziness of the night
and i wake up
wondering

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seduce me with your eyes
your gaze
kills me on the spot
standstill
i am blinded and bound

Saturday, March 11, 2006

everybody's working for the weekend....

Good. Too many meetings and i get extended here. hahah.

Friday and i'm tired....from all the walking! Had to walk 6 blocks inMakati to get to my meeting. Sheesh. Damn the friday traffic. Thank goodness for good friends and lots of makeup samples! hehehe....

OOh, got me a mani! yey!

Fab gig last night! Itchyworms rocked the casbah, Twisted Halo channeled all its singing stylistics to new levels, IDWAC was pretty happening and SVC brought down the house. Damn, that was good. Nice start for lil bro to get used to the Manila scene...

Mi caramelo your messages send me sweet thrills. :-)

Now a couple more days before i head back home to pack.... tee-heee....

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

same wavelength

Oddities of this crazy life: the fact that two people no matter the distance or difference, can think alike.

i love that about us, mi caramelo.

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Speculations of the future offer no comfort. What is now is best taken care of. Yet amid all these rationalizations, i can't shake off your feeling for me. Just what is this!?!

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Sex and the City revisited. I feel like Carrie in The Big Time episode... *sigh* demons, away!

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i need to go get myself another drink.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

One more for the road...


despedida
Originally uploaded by wanderlust_junkie.

with barely 12 hours before his flight, Roo had a night of good company, hi-jinx and a mini-college reunion with his 'kada. I'm gonna miss ya Roo! See ya in a few months...

OPEN Letter to our Leaders

Amidall the hullabaloo was going on last week, nobody really knew what to do after they got GMA out. I'm so glad this guy voiced it out so well.

The following letter was written by Melvin Mangada of TBWA/Santiago Mangada Puno and Associates, One of the Philippines' top creative minds, heading one of the nation's top Advertising Agencies.


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Open Letter to Our Leaders

Dear Tita Cory, Senators, Congressmen, Businessmen, Media people, Leftists, and all Bleeding Hearts Out There:

I am angry. And I know that there are many out there who are angrier than I am for the same reason. And that reason is simple. I am sick and tired of all you guys claiming to speak for me and many Filipinos. I feel like screaming every time you mouth words about fighting for my freedom and my rights, when you obviously are just thinking about yours. You tell me that the essence of democracy is providing every citizen the right to speak his or her mind and make his or her own informed judgments, but you yourselves do not respect my silence and the choices I and many others have made. In other words, your concept of democracy is limited to having your rights and your freedoms respected, at the expense of ours.

I am utterly flabbergasted that you still do not get it: we already responded to your calls, and our response has been very clear - we chose not to heed your calls to go to EDSA or to Fort Bonifacio not because we do not love our country or our freedoms or our rights, but precisely because we love our country even more. Because quite frankly, we are prepared to lose our freedoms and our rights just to move this country forward. You may think that is not correct, you can tell me all the dire warnings about the evils of authoritarian rule, but quite frankly all we see is your pathetic efforts to prop up your cause. You tell me that you are simply protecting my freedoms and my rights, but who told you to do that? I assure you that when I feel that my rights and my freedoms are at a peril, I will stand up and fight for them myself.

You tell us that GMA is not the right person to lead this country because she has done immoral acts. As someone who sees immorality being committed wantonly in many ways every day and by everyone (yes, including the ones you do), I may have become jaded. But you have not been able to offer me any viable alternative, while GMA has bent over backwards many times to accommodate you while continuing to work hard despite all the obstacles and the brickbats you have thrown her way. From where I sit, she is the one who has been working really hard to move this country forward while all of you have been so busy with one and only one thing: to make sure she does not succeed. So forgive me if I do not want to join you in your moral pissing contest. Forgive me if I have chosen to see things from another perspective. You say she is the problem. I say, we are the problem, more to the point, I think you are a bigger problem than she is. Taking her out may solve part of the problem, but that leaves us with a bigger problem: you. That is right, YOU!

While I felt outraged that she called a Comelec official during the elections and that she may have rigged the elections, I have since then taken the higher moral ground and forgiven her. Yes my dear bishops, I have done what you have told me to do since I was a child, which you say is the Christian and moral thing to do: forgive. Especially since she has asked for forgiveness and has tried to make amends for it. Erap certainly has not apologized and continues to be defiant, continuing to insult us everyday with his protestations. Cory has not apologized for her incompetence but we have forgiven her just the same because like GMA, she has worked hard after all.

I know you do not think that GMA's apology was not enough, or that she was insincere, or that that apology should not be the end of it, but please spare me the hypocrisy of telling me that you do so for the sake of protecting the moral fiber of society. The real reason is because you smell blood and wants to go for the kill.

Well, I have news for you. I do not like her too. I did not even vote for her. I voted for Raul Roco. But as much as I do not like her, I do not like you even more. I may not trust her, but guess what; I do not trust you even more.

You know why? Because all you do is whine and sabotage this country. You belittle every little progress we make; conveniently forgetting that it is not just GMA who has been working so hard to achieve them. Every single day, we keep the faith burning in our hearts that this country will finally pull itself out of the mess and we work so hard to do that. Every little progress is the result of our collective effort, we who toil hard everyday in our jobs. Yet, you persist in one and only thing: making GMA look bad in the eyes of the world and making sure that this country continues to suffer to prove your sorry point. In the process, you continue to destroy what we painstakingly try to build. So please do not be surprised that I do not share your cause. Do not be surprised that we have become contemptuous of your antics. You have moved heaven and earth to destroy her credibility, you have convened all kinds of fora and hearings and all you have done is test our patience to the core. For all your effort, you have only succeeded in dragging us further down. I say enough.

Don't get me wrong. I am not asking that we take immorality lying down, or that we let the President get away with anything illegal. But you have tried to prove your accusations all these time and you have not succeeded, so it is time to let things be. Besides, you are doing something immoral as well if not utterly unforgivable. The Magdalo soldiers are consorting with the communists - the same people who have been trying to kill democracy for years. Cory has been consorting with Erap and the Marcoses.

So please wake up and take a reality check. In the absence of true and genuine moral leadership, many of us have decided to cast our lot with the President, even if we do not like her. A flawed leader is better than scheming power hungry fools who can not even stand up for their convictions in the face of an impending arrest.

Your coup attempts and the denials that you have consequently made only underscore what we think is true: you are spineless and unreliable people whose only defense is to cry suppression when your ruse do not work. You are like bullies who taunt and provoke, but cry oppression when taken to task for your cruelty.

I would have respected you if you took the consequences of your actions like real heroes: calmly and responsibly instead of kicking and screaming and making lame excuses. You say you are willing to die for us, that you do all these things for the country and the Filipino, but you are not even willing to go to jail for us.

Come on, you really think we believe that you did not want to bring down the government when that is the one and only thing you have been trying to do in the last many months?

We love this country and we want peace and progress. Many among us do not give a f*&k who sits at Malacanang because we will work hard and do our share to make things work. If you only do your jobs, the ones that we elected you to do, things would be a lot simpler and easier for every one.

The events during the weekend only proved one thing. You are more dangerous and a serious threat to this country than GMA is. We have seen what you are capable of doing - you are ready to burn this country and reduce everything to ashes just to prove your point. If there is something that we need protection from, it is protection from you.

wandering....

looking for 2Bedroom or 3bedroom apartment that's affordable easy to access and in a safe neighborhood. Preferred area around the UP Ateneo campus/ T.Morato/ New Manila. Don't mind bunkinng with other peeps (if it's a HOUSE), but it's two of us and we need separate rooms (hence the 2 bedrooms). Any leads will be appreciated ASAP. contact me. thanks.

Monday, March 06, 2006

shake it off

You didn't ask for commitment nor did you say anything of it.

Then why does this feel like one?


i care about you a lot.


You didnt ask to have feelings but then you just realize them. it was there just slowly creeping in. Amid all the figures of speech it comes out to bite you in the ass.


beso, Mi caramelo.


You wish now you hadn't asked. Thre truth hurts though it should have been enough to just not know.

You wonder about the what ifs again. Maybe it's just better not to ask.


You begin to wonder when did everything have so much at stake. (ouch, my heart. i hear it breaking.)

happy bunnies

restless

The entire weekend flashes like a blur... in between interesting text messages and party hardy nights i reflect and find myself thinking a lot about what ifs. Life's too short for what ifs.

The music blares. The lights flash before me and people's faces blur around me as i take another sip. Pass the beer please.

I need another drink.

Beep beep. I see another text and instantly wish i am in another place. Damn, i wish you were here, mi caramelo. I scan the crowd looking for reprieve. Amid the crowd i see him.

Our eyes meet more than once. I think i'm ready for that drink now.

Friday, March 03, 2006

friday i'm in love....

dinner with friends. ukay galore. truth or fibs gone awry ---ok, chismis na lang tayo! naughty messages, sweet nothings. 80s revival. drunk on banana rhum and light beer (eeow, but nice). happy posts. kodakan and late night chibog. Mcdo 24 hours is my friend. quasi-reunion at powerbooks. exchange numbers tayo! dating do's and don'ts. shirtless dates (ooh lala!). looking forward the weekend....

Thursday, March 02, 2006

WTF!??!!!

The Bottom Line
Your health is ruled by your head, too, so get in touch with positive emotions.

In Detail
There's just no doubt about it -- you've been an especially good person lately. So when 'the one you thought had gotten away' suddenly turns up, think of it as a lovely surprise -- a second shot at the title. Oh, and when it happens, if you can let go of the past long enough to smile at them, give yourself a reward. You definitely deserve it.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

march-ing in

Ahh, new month, new list item to cross out.

Dammit, i need my Latin fix.
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